|In prison, we walked in circles around a track. Everything in prison seemed to be about going around and around and around in circles and not getting anywhere…|
next day, we spoke to the counselor, the case manager, and the unit manager.
Merry Lee told them that she had lived in an abusive relationship and that the
diatribes of the teacher caused her to have flashbacks of that lived nightmare.
It was sad to see my roommate and friend fight back tears as she talked. Merry
Lee, who had had a child when she was just fourteen, who became a business
owner. She had survived an abusive relationship. Merry Lee was
strong and bright and a survivor.
person we spoke to agreed with us in our assessment that the teacher had
engaged in sexual harassment. The counselor with the growly voice told us that,
if this sort of behavior occurred in a public school, the teacher would have
been fired for cause. But this was a prison and, because the students were
criminals, it was hard to get rid of prison personnel on the basis of student
complaints. We had reported sexual harassment. I remembered the orientation.
The warden said that there was a zero tolerance policy toward sexual
harassment. We left the offices with no feeling of satisfaction, however. We
wondered if anything would be done about this teacher, who had told us one day,
“I don’t care if the students ever learn that two plus two equals four. I get
paid for eight hours of work each day.” He was the same teacher who had ordered
the students to buy composition books from the commissary. When the students
told him that they could not afford the composition books, he said, “You don’t
expect me to give them to you for free, do you? Why should the taxpayers have
to provide school supplies to a bunch of inmates?”
afternoon, I had a pre-release class to attend, and I went. When the
pre-release class ended early, one of my roommates, Jane, told me to come into
the dining room so that the teacher would not see that I was out of the
pre-release class and would order me to get back into his class. I went into
the dining room, sat at a table, and folded napkins until it was time for the
afternoon count of the inmates.
inmates were counted five times a day.
had a pre-release class scheduled for the evening.
pre-release class was canceled. That was when I was told that the teacher had
fired Merry Lee.
fire me,” I asked Merry Lee, hopefully.
she said. “Just me. What the heck? I’ve never been fired from a job in my
the other hand, had been fired from various jobs, mainly due to my failure to
understand or to follow verbal directions. After dinner, Jane asked me if I was
going back to the class.
like to say that this was the point where I had a sudden attack of courage. I
would like to say that I went to the class and told the teacher that his
behavior the day before had been unacceptable and even criminal and that
abusive behavior should never be tolerated, even in a prison. But I didn’t. I
decided that I just wanted the teacher to fire me. I decided to fail to show up
for work as a way to entice the “YOU’RE FIRED” roar from the teacher. I told
Jane that I was going to walk on the track.
outside and walked in circles. I looked at the trees with their soft, tiny
springtime leaves. I saw the rabbits run across the track. I was alone with my
own thoughts. I usually didn’t like to be alone with my thoughts, and this time
was no exception. I kept hearing the voice of the teacher in my head. I
wondered how many students he had discouraged from ever going on with their
education. I started to jog. I decided that I could not go back to the
classroom because, if I sat next to the teacher while he uttered his diatribes,
I would be tacitly approving of what he said.
continued to walk and to think, Sister Ardeth Platte walked up to me and told
me that the C.O. was looking for me. The C.O. for that day was a very pleasant
young man, who helped me out when I had managed to forget the combination of
the lock on my clothing locker. I went up the 66 steps from the track to the
camp building with Sister Ardeth. Her presence was very calming. She had been
an inspiration and a mentor for me.
to talk to the C.O. and the unit manager and the teacher. The teacher told me
that he knew that I snitched on him. He said that I was going to the SHU but,
if the unit manager didn’t want me to go, I wouldn’t. I giggled nervously. The
teacher told me to stop laughing at him, which only encouraged the nervous
giggles to continue. I wasn’t amused, just a bit panicky.
me back to the C.O., who told me that a lieutenant would soon be there to
question me about the incident. My roommates tried to assure me that I would
not go to the SHU because I was just out of bounds. It wasn’t a charge that
would normally get someone sent to the SHU.
the SHU I went.
wrote the entire story on paper with a golf pencil.
after I finished writing, the teacher’s supervisor came to see me.
(to be continued)