A few months ago, during the lockdown, I wrote a blog post, titled “Pennies from Heaven (with link!).” In it, I talked about coming face to face with all of my insecurities and inadequacies. I was on an inner journey, and it was a pretty bumpy one. At the end, I emerged with the realization that I didn’t have to be the best at anything or even be “good enough.” I am enough, just as I am right now.
The same is true for you! You are enough, just as you are. You are enough if you try new things and fail at them. I just looked up FAIL as an acronym and I came up with:
- first attempt in learning
- first action in learning
- flawlessly ascending in life
- forever acquiring important lessons
It could just be that the conditions are not right for success at a particular time. A sailboat doesn’t go far without wind. A book without readers just languishes on a shelf. No one looks at a painting that’s sitting in a closet, instead of hanging on a wall. If that is so, it is okay to switch to plan B. And this summer, I did exactly that. My education is in journalism, and I have put a lot of effort into my journalism career. I have written many articles about a wide range of topics. I was even the first journalist in Western New York to write about the emerald ash borer, an invasive species of insects that has decimated the ash tree population in this area and many other areas. But from an economic standpoint, my journalism career has been a failure.
Because I know that I am enough, I know that I am not paid anywhere near what I am worth. So… for the summer, I went with plan B. I managed to obtain seasonal employment as a gardener at Buffalo Harbor State Park. And it’s been a job that I have thoroughly enjoyed.
|People come to the park to do cool stuff like this!|
The job is almost over with the end of the season. I don’t know what lies ahead for me but I am excited about the possibilities.
You are enough, just as you are. Go ahead and try that something that you’ve always wanted to do. The thing that you have yet to do because you weren’t yet convinced that you were enough. You never know. It could be the thing that makes you happier than you ever thought possible.
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I love what you wrote about FAIL as an acronym, I never thought of that! But if we fail, we are encouraged even within ourselves to keep trying. I hope what lies ahead for you is something great just like your photographs.
Alice, you are definitely more than enough, as you are.. and I am sure that all those things you truly deserve are in your future….
This tenuous life 2020 09 YF
The phone rings.
One more friend… gone forever.
Some leave suddenly:
Man killed riding bicycle. 36.
Others after a long illness…
Cancer. 43. 52. 69.
Gun in hand
17-year old boasts:
“I just killed somebody.”
Covid kills thousands each day
though strangely, no one I know…
I should feel fortunate…
I have lived longer than all those others…
Death is imminent…
Life is tenuous.
At any moment,
any of us could depart.
Dogs are old. Mom is old.
I feel old – though I’m not…
I sit at desk, typing.
Through the window,
crickets chirp love songs
birds sing peaceful melodies
in a violent world.
I breathe in.
I breathe out.
I am alive.
Life goes on.
©2020 Yvona Fast
Yvona, that is an incredible poem! Thank you so much for expressing what is in your heart.
Thank you Alice. I've been busy this September writing melancholy poems…
I feel that so many experiences in life have ended up preparing me for something down the road. If I hadn't done "A" years ago, I wouldn't know how to react to "B". Or "B" isn't scary because I've been through "A". So I think now, what is life preparing me for? It's strange, I was going to retire in April and do all these things. I can't do any of them now. But, I am not unhappy about it. Not yet, anyway. Those paths we don't expect, as you said, can be the paths to something great for ourselves.
I may never be good enough for others but I am good enough for myself and it's okay to not be okay which I haven't been this morning and even if other people think I should just give up I am not going to.Like you I a not sure what the Future has in store for either of us its okay to try new and different things even if we fail at them.